You Always Hurt the Ones You Love Most

I know I'm not that much of a saint (nobody is anyway), but I've tried through all the trials and tribulations to keep my composure and be patient with it all. And I'm proud to say that I did quiet excellently given my usually monstrous impatience and temper. But this time round, the hurt was too much to bear. Coming from someone you love and the accusations posted on sms questioning the integrity of "our" motives behind all the sacrifices....... Please God, I've tried my level best but its too much.

Everyone have some matter they are stressed about. But its a matter of controlling our own emotions and handling our own problems... so that the spillover effect will not affect others who has nothing to do with it. Hmmmm....

So many has been hurt... and the common factor lies to ONE. Admit it, Apologise & we can still hug and make-up. Money ain't everything. Its our faith and the common goal to reach our endz.

I have to be hard this time. Nothing seems to hurt ONE. I have to find something which will hurt ONE most. But what? ONE is oblivious to anything that surrounds her... that, or she's a good actress....

I never meant what I said, i just want to hurt ONE for hurting me so bad. For reminding me of my black phases, of the horrors I went thru, the shame impending... Please God, give me the strength, if not a little bit to go on...

Dear God, please give ONE the ability to see her mistakes, how others suffer around her, make her understand, admit and mellow her upbeats... I pray one day, she'll find it in her heart that I only meant to make her an even better person, from a good person she is now.... I love you guys so much but I believe you always hurt the ones you love most.... not out of spite but to make each other realise that the good in us can be made better by understanding the ones around u....